The Waiting Game

Well, it’s been a while since I’ve last posted something on my blog, aside from my final editorial article for the Music Teaching blog I was an author on, I don’t believe I’ve offered an update on here in a while.

Things are going well here, I suppose. 

I’ve just been busy trying to finish this film score project, as well as endure the final hardest weeks of pregnancy.  I can’t lie, but it’s been getting harder and harder to concentrate on music as my body gets more tired and exhausted as I get nearer to my due date in August.  I’ve been asking myself why/how I agreed to do something like this during the final stage of my pregnancy. I suppose when I agreed to this many months ago, I didn’t consider or remember how it feels to be super pregnant (this is my 2nd baby).  But ding, ding, ding, I’ve officially been reminded as of late.

My goal is to finish this project by the middle of July, which puts me about 3 weeks away from my due date.  Reason being, there is no possible way I could concentrate on something like this with a newborn around, even though the director doesn’t officially need the music until after this baby will be born. 

The hardest thing for me doing a project like this, is forcing myself to be creative when I’m not really always in the creative mood. 

Normally I don’t compose unless the muse is there.  It’s a luxury that I admit, I enjoy.  I know there are composers out there who create music like a full time every day job. They have their hours and they force themselves to compose.  I’m just not like that though (which is probably why it takes me so long to put out new music and albums).  And I can’t even begin to express how difficult it is to force yourself to be creative when your mind and body are exhausted (I’m not trying to play the pregnancy card, but, really it is what it is).

Aside from working on this film project when I can, I’ve been yearning to get back to work on my next album.  But, as I discovered a week or two ago, it’s not the smartest idea for me to work on the two simultaneously as I’ve found it hard to seperate the styles.  In other words, when trying to compose for my own solo work, I find myself “stuck in a rut”, stylistically speaking, as any personal work starts to sound the same or similar to the music I’ve been creating for this film.

So as it is, everything just sort of feels like a waiting game right now.

Waiting for this baby to come,

Waiting for inspiration, time, and energy to finish the film score,

Waiting for that (film project) to be done,

and waiting for the time again when I’ll be able to get back to work on my next album with a freshness in mind.

Having said that, I do think that once I finish the score, have this baby, and take a small hiatus away from music for a bit, the first thing I want to do is get back to the basics.  I want to spend a good month or two just practicing again; none of my own music, but the classics like Beethoven, Chopin, Liszt, Bach, etc.  It’s been a while since I’ve given those gentlemen some of my undivided attention and I do believe their lessons in musicality are needed to give me a fresh perspective on the direction I want to take with this next album.  And well, to also give my technical skills a facelift.

But for now…let the waiting game ensue.

Up Next:  I will be holding a sale on Key of Sea during the month of July to celebrate the fact that I’ve completely sold out of my first run of cds and have had to order more from my manufacturer. Thanks to all my fans who have supported me, and helped me to run out inventory. It’s been a good problem to have.  So with my fresh batch of boxes of cds sitting in my living room, I will be celebrating with a sale. Stay tuned…


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