My Mom and I are about 2 or 3 weeks away from releasing the new album, and as the time gets closer and closer, I find myself having those thoughts again. I’m sure every artist gets them. You know the ones I’m talking about…
Will people like the music?
Am I prepared to accept that there will be negative responses as well as positive?
Will my fans like this album as much as the last? Will it live up to their expectations?
A friend once told me that “once an artist releases their work to the rest of the world, it is no longer theirs, but the world’s”. As much as I dislike that philosophy, it really does ring true. I’m always amazed to find my music popping up on new websites that I did not put there myself, or to find the hundreds of comments left on Pandora about my music, or discussions on blogs about my music. It’s almost like I’m just a fly on the wall. Do these people even know that I stumbled across their words or not? Most likely – no. The music is now the world’s to enjoy or critique, to love or dislike.
So now as we are approaching the release of The Lullaby Album, I find myself savoring these last few weeks as the music is mine (and my mom’s) alone. It is solely our own creation and so personal… before it is no longer ours anymore and is birthed to the world.
I find it ironic how these last few weeks feel just like the end of pregnancy (considering that this is a lullaby album). You are so anxious to have it overwith after a long creation period and lots of hard work, you want to meet the baby, but at the same time you savor that last little bit of time as you know the work really begins after the baby is born.
Here’s to the final weeks.